defenitely is not a word

I love him. Definitely. I'm surely scared of saying it out loud. I'm even scared of saying it in my own language. That's me, I have always had my way of spoiling every good chance at happiness I get, and take my word on this, that doesn't happen very often. I have always had a way of making thing go my way too, and this is not gonna be the one and only exception. Saying "I love you" is not gonna be enough, and we both know that. For once in my life, I'm gonna be the one to take a step forward. He knows I love him. Now I have to prove it if I really want this to work.